Title:	Im leaving soon
Author:	bigfatsara
Date:	2010-01-05 @ 11:52
Security:	public
Music:	How it Ends-DeVotchKa
Mood:	uncomfortable

 I don't care.I'm catching the bus this year.I will not continue to say "I'll wait another year".Why should I live my life feeling like crap.Theres absolutely no point.No one gives a crap about me so I don't have to worry about feel guilty about leaving.The funny thing is that once I'm gone I know for a fact people will start caring.I think suicide can be a real eyeopener.It can change the way a person acts completely .Like for example in the movie "Prayers For Bobby" a womans son is gay and she cannot except that.He ends up committing suicide.In the end of the movie she ends up becoming an advocate for gay rights.The move is based on a true story. Maybe my death might teach my mom to cherish what she has while it lasts and to make better decisions I hope she benefits from my death.I hope my father feels very guilty.So guilty that he ends up taking his own life.My parents are the only people I want to make a huge impact on.It would be nice if my old friends would feel bad but I know they would probably just laugh if they found out I was dead.i could see it now:"haha that emo bitch killed herself.what a fucking dumbass".But whatever.I'm satisfied with my parents feeling guilty.


I estimate that will leave in August-December.

Now I just need to figure out how.I will not fail again.Third times a charm?